Busy Being Tara

Depression has been at its peak these past few days. It’s been one of those stretches where everything feels heavier than usual, and it certainly hasn’t helped that my blood sugar levels have been fluctuating quite a bit. Whether the two are connected or not, I can’t help but wonder if there’s a correlation. When my body feels off, my mind seems to struggle even more.

Despite that, I managed to get a few things done today, which feels like a victory in itself. Sometimes when you’re battling depression, even simple tasks can take an incredible amount of energy, so I’m trying to give myself credit where it’s due.

I was able to finish editing a photo session that had been sitting on my to-do list, tackle a pile of dishes, and finally go through several packages I’d ordered. None of those tasks are particularly exciting, but when depression is weighing you down, checking things off your list can feel like a major accomplishment.

I also treated myself to a pedicure and manicure. I honestly can’t tell you the last time I had a manicure… it’s probably been over ten years. Taking the time to do something just for myself felt a little strange at first, but also surprisingly refreshing. It was a small act of self-care that I didn’t realize I needed.

This coming weekend, I’ll be heading to Las Vegas for Meghan’s bachelorette party, so I figured I should make at least a little effort to look the part. Having my nails done makes me feel a bit more put together and a little more ready for a fun weekend away.

The depression is still there. The hard days are still hard. But today reminded me that progress doesn’t always look dramatic. Sometimes it’s editing photos, washing dishes, opening packages, and taking an hour to care for yourself. Sometimes the victory is simply continuing to move forward, one small task at a time. Today, that’s what I’m choosing to celebrate.